I REJECT YOUR REALITY..

Body: GIRLS FILL OUT THE TOP
GUYS FILL OUT THE BOTTOM
OR BOTH IF UR BI
AND THEN POST IT UP SO WE SEE WHAT'S UP


LADIES: Turned ON, OFF or doesn't matter when a guy:

wears tight pants: Its ok, no too tight tho, leave something to the imagination hey!
Is taller than you: I like it, but it's not essential.
Wears braces: teeth whatever, i dont care, as a method of holding up pants... H.O.T.!!
Dresses preppy: Sometimes it ok
Dresses Ghetto: this is not often ok, unless he is getto!
Has green eyes: Eye colour
Has blue eyes: doesn't matter
Has hazel eyes: that much
Has Brown eyes: to me!
Wears glasses: hot
Tattoos: Dudes that get tats to be "IN" are fucked up. so not always!
Has a tan: whatever!
Plays a sport: whatever
Smiles a lot: Love smiles!
Calls you just to say hi: I'd perfer some meaning in a call or just a text.
Compliments you: who doesn't like that!
Shaves his legs: whatever!
Piercings: HOT
Has facial hair: yes, no, depends on the guy.
Has brown hair: Hair colour doesn't
Has Black hair: really make any
Has blonde hair: difference to me!
Has red hair: (but i do have a vice for this one)
Makeup: depends.
Can make you laugh at any given moment: thats good!
Loyal: Plus
Laid back: yes
Plays guitar: I like
Plays drums: to listen
Sings: to music (and if i like the people making the music, it makes me happy)
He can draw: thats hot!
doesn't eat meat: don't care
Laughs a lot: hot
Is comfortable around you: hot
Holds your hand: depends
Doesnt like same music: i can fix that.
Country or jazz: country = bad, JAZZ = HOT
virgin: no.


GUYS: Turned ON, OFF or doesn't matter when a girl.


dresses like a grandma: HOT
is a musician: HOT
is shorter than you: HOT
is taller than you: HOT
Has green eyes: HOT
has blue eyes: HOT
has brown eyes:HOT
has long hair:HOT
has short hair:HOT
drinks alcohol:HOT
smokes cigs: HOT
smokes weed: HOT
wears glasses: HOT
has blonde hair: HOT
black hair: HOT
has red hair: HOT
works out: HOT
smiles: HOT
calls you just to say HI:HOT
Doesn't eat meat: HOT
smacks your butt: HOT
compliments you: HOT
shaves her legs: HOT
wears jewelry: HOT
has smaller feet than you:HOT
smiles when you walk into the room:HOT
Belly piercings: HOT
Laid back: HOT
Doesn't party: HOT
Likes to party: HOT
laughs a lot: HOT
pierced ears: HOT
Tattoos: HOT
Honest and Open:HOT
Virgin:HOT


FUCK THIS BULLSHIT QUIZ.

1.Where did you take your default pic?
My place.

2.What exactly are you wearing right now?
work unifom, and socks with skulls.

3.What is your current problem?
PAIN. I'm in so much fucking pain right now...

4.What makes you most happy?
Seeing my sister.

5.What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
Its Muse latest, something about a black hole??

6.Any celeb you would marry?
The guy that plays Goren on criminal intent! mmm!

7.Name someone with the same birthday as you?
No, Em is the day after and Lori is the day before.

8.Ever sang in front of a large audience?
No. no-one would have me, even if i'd pay them.

9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
yeah, when i was younger.

10.Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
Movies, yes. Lilo and stitch and Iceage rule.

11.Do you speak any other languages?
not yet, i want to learn sign language tho.

12.Has anyone you've been really close with passed away?
Growing up where i did, a small town, if there was a p plate crash and kids dies, you always knew them

13.Do you ever watch MTV?
I have no tv


Chapter 1:

1.Middle name: Susan

2.Nickname(s): Hayles, Bruce and bitch.

3.Current location: work. Prospect.

4.Eye color: sometimes brown or sometimes green

Chapter 2:

1.Do you live with your parents: Not for ages.

2.Do you get along with your parent(s): I wouldn't give up my mum for anything. She is my world

3.Are your parents married/separated/divorced: Seperated.

4.Do you have any Siblings?: One Blood sister, one Love sister and a few girls i call sisters.

Chapter 3: Favorites

1.IceCream: sorbet?

2.Season: Summer

3.Shampoo/conditioner: Sunsilk, it smells so good.

Chapter 4: Do You..

1.Dance in the shower: yes!

2.Write on your hand: not often, i always have note books and pens

3.Call people back: I won't take calls from any number that isn't already in my phone, so they go thru to my message vbank and i'll call them back if i so choose.

4.Believe in love: Yes...

5.Sleep on a certain side of the bed: I sleep on the left.

6. Any bad habits: Tonnes. SO many

Chapter 5: Have You..

1.Broken a bone?: my toe..

2.Sprained stuff?: Ankles all the time.

3.Had physical therapy?: I wish!

4.Been to rehab?: Nope

5.Taken painkillers?: I'm on them right now!

6.Gone SCUBA diving or snorkeling: No, i find it hard to breathe thru a snorkle.

7.Been stung by a bee: no 22 years old and counting.

8.Thrown up at the dentist: never

9.Sworn in front of your parents: Always!

10.Had detention: Constantly.

11.Been sent to the principal's office: a few times

Chaper 6: Who/What was the last:

1.Movie(s) you saw: Steve-o out on bail.

2.Person to text you?: Mum

3.Person to call you: Hayley

4.Person who hugged you? Vivian

5.Thing you touched: My lip ring.

6.Thing you ate: sour cream and chives rice cracker

7.Thing you drank: water

8.Friends you consider really close to you: They know who they are. I tell them constantly.

9.Friends you miss the most that have moved: no-one has moved, but i miss my QLD friends all the time.

DON'T TAKE IT IF YOU'RE GOING TO LIE.

1. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR LAST EX IF YOU COULD?
Not a chance. He is rad, we still talk, but no. Not to mention he's happy with his new girl!

2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
I have on my HerNightmare shirt and Brits DOC hood and elbow length gloves

3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
I'll kiss them if they like, the person i think about most doesn't have MySpace.

4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP FRIEND LIST?
For sure, but not as much as some.

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
There are maybe 4 that live in this country that i haven't met, but all the international bands etc i don't know..

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
My Mum is the SHIT!!

8. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE?
I wouldn' change my name from Hailee, if i was born a boy my dad wanted to call me Angus and my mum wanted to call me Cameron...

10. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
Something that involved drinking and my friends.

11. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE?
it's called BackTrack, it came with the phone..

12. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
6:15.. had work and stayed in Gawler.

13. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?
Holding a beer, smoking a cigarette standing outside the Cranker with Mikey...

14. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
Yes... strangely enough i do...

15. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
Sleep, but i can't there is too much else to be doing..

16. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
This morning, i stayed there last night...

17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
I like how i am, but i sometime wish i could eat all the Doritos i liked with out putting on weight... And i wish i could actually stand up for myself...

18. IF YOU HAD 250,000 DOLLARS... WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH IT?
Everyone would get pressies! It would be like Christmas!! I go to India for a culture change and Guatemala to vist my WV kid!

19. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
Just over a year and a half...

20. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
Nope, i don't think we'd have much to talk about....

21. WHO ARE YOU TALKING TO RIGHT NOW?
I was just talking to Waldie, but he had to go...

22. LAST THING YOU ATE?
I just drank the greatest mug ofmilo in the world!!

23. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
Anything that involves the sun... Nov. though to Feb.

24. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
Right now, cold weather makes me lazy, complacent and depressed..

25. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
I'm wearing Brits Hoodie asi type, and her underwear!! HAHAHAHA

26. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
One of the guys at work, who thinks hes top shit and well, read my I'm so sick blog, you'll get the idea.

27. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
www.bom.gov.au to watch the satellite pics... so fucking amazing.

28. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
Amish or Danica

29. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
I def. make myself more upset that any one else i know...

30. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
There are a very select few that i would do that for, and yes, i would.

31. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
Beer, jager, milo...

34. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
No, i dream of travel.

35. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
I'd be upset, but more so for their family who have to deal with the grief, no matter what issue i had with them i would still feel sorry for the family.

of girls in no clothing, posting the photos on their MySpaces...

I'm sick of girls being BITCHES just because of who they are fucking, it doesn't make you better than me if you're fucking my ex. I'm not with him for a reason and i DO NOT repeat my mistakes...

I'm SO sick of people being ASSHOLES for no reason to BEAUTIFUL people that don't deserve the shit they cop...

I'm sick of people talking down about my friends and how they choose to spend their free time on the weekends, who the fuck are you to judge them, they are much nicer than you, much more honest, more fun to be around and not to mention, more loyal...

I'm sick of people telling others how they can and can feel about other people, "You can't date her cuz we're mates, it'll hurt my feelings..." That is total bullshit. If you think shes cute, just fucking tell her, He's already fucking someone else anyway and seems to be getting along just fucking fine... Let her live her life you fucking JERK...

I'm sick of people being fake. If you are only my friend when there is no-one else around to talk to you can fuck right off. I'm no longer wasting my time with you. I'll tell you if i think you are this person...

I'm sick of people being nice to other people just to gain, share what you got, bitch. Stealing from friends isn't rad. Cheating on you man and then leaving others with the evidence isn't rad. Acting nice to my face and then bitching when i need your support isn't rad. Not taking responsibility for your actions isn't rad. Expecting praise for actions that should have been automatic isn't rad. The only reason that we still talk is to make it easier for everyone else.

I'm sick of religious people thinking that they are better than me for their choice of worship. I have my beliefs and if you don't like it thats cool, just don't tell me that i'm going to your hell for who i am, your God doesn't scare me. Also, don't expect me to respect you if i know more about christianity than you do, especially if you are covered in religious tattoos.

I'm sick of coming to work to be abused by both customers and management. I am no longer going to take shit from my supervisor.

I'm sick of my family for blaming others for their self imposed exclusion. If you get an invite, you are invited. Don't make half an effort and don't whine about not having fun. We have a great extended family and if you are choosing not to participate in the celebration then don't tell me that i'm blowing this out of proportion, you are hurting our grandparents and our younger cousins. You are selfish and tearing our family apart. Sunday was so much fun but our Nan cried, i can't believe that you would act like this. You are fucking BITCH.

I don't like you for very obvious reasons, but i'll be civil to keep the peace. I might make an effort if i think your worth it, but soon you will be deleted.

Enjoy the rest of your lives.

believe-
that we don't have to change friends
if we understand that friends change..

I believe-
that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while and
you must forgive them for that.

I believe-
that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I believe-
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I believe-
that it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I believe-
that you should always leave loved ones
with loving words. It may be the last
time you see them.

I believe-
that you can keep going
long after you can't.

I believe-
that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.

I believe-
that either you control your attitude
or it controls you.

I believe-
that regardless of how hot and
steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades and there had
better be something else to take its place.


I believe-
that heroes are the people
who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.

I believe-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe-
that my best friend and I can do anything
or nothing and have the best time.

I believe-
that sometimes the people you expect
to kick you when you're down,
will be the ones to help you get back up.

I believe-
that sometimes when I'm angry
I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me
the right to be cruel.

I believe-
that just because someone doesn't love
you the way you want them to doesn't
mean they don't love you with all they have.

I believe-
that maturity has more to do with
what types of experiences you've had
and what you've learned from them
and less to do with how many
birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe-
that it isn't always enough to be
forgiven by others. Sometimes you
have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe-
that no matter how bad your
heart is broken the world doesn't stop for
your grief.

I believe-
that our background and circumstances
may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who
we become.

I believe-
that just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do.

I believe-
that you shouldn't be so eager
to find out a secret.
It could change your life forever.

I believe-
that your life can be changed
in a matter of hours
by people who don't even know you.

I believe-
that even when you think you
have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you
you will find the strength to help..

I believe-
that credentials on the wall
do not make you a decent human being.

I believe-
that just because im not like you,
that dosent mean that your better than me

I believe-
its your decision on who you choose to critise,
but that is your problem not theres.

I know you think you're better than me, more upper class, maybe more knowledgeable, maybe even a better friend/ family person or lover. You're not. I, as a feminist, strive for equality with men in every field. If it so happens that my performance at work, in our friendship group or at home is better than yours, then you are not putting in enough effort. Your truly cavalier performance is just inadequate, and when you realise that i have out-done you, you try cutting me down by telling me what to do. Ordering me around to fulfill your red-blooded desire to have some sort of power over me, as a female. I won't let you have that dominance, I will not allow you to ridicule my hard work and attainment of personal and professional goals, to satisfy your twisted patriarchal ideals. Just because i'm more nurturing than you and have deeper comprehension of the feelings of those around me, doesn't give you the right to walk all over me.
If i am more experienced in the profession in which we work, due to the fact you have only been employed by this company a few weeks and i over a year, then one would assume that i may have some decent ideas to offer you if you weren't so pompous to accept my help. Not only that, you have been here less than a month, you do not know the daily structure or flow, as well as i do, and although i am not a manager or supervisor, as the longest serving staff member in the room, if i was to say its your turn for lunch, you don't say "nah, i'm tuning this guitar ( a job that is neither expected or required in fact, if we purchase a guitar there is absolutely no need for it to be tuned by us, as the cleaners will knock it around anyway.), i'll go when i'm done". It's just not an acceptable answer. You go when you are told, simple because the boss will yell at me if things don't go as planned. Its not like i'm asking you to pick up butts out of the sand boxes and around the car park (that job was kindly delegated to me), i'm asking you to go to lunch, so the afternoon meetings and customer service requirements are me. It's really not that hard.
In conclusion, if you need to exert your conceited attitude towards me, i'll take you down. I don't like to be a bitch, but if you conclude that because you are a male and i'm a female that you not only work harder, but also deserve higher pay and better benefits as well as getting the pleasure of telling me what to do, well junior burger, you are in some serious trouble.
When i was first employed here, i was the shit kicker and still are, as are you. But, having been accepted as part of the team doesn't mean that in the hierarchy you are above me because of your sex and the tone of your voice. NOT AT ALL.

*i'm sorry that my spelling and grammar aren't up to scratch, but i think this gets my point across.*

More words with out phrases to complete the in between bits...
Boy.
Boys.
Bourbon.
Football.
Work.
Hangover.
Kiss.
Jacket.
Scream.
Friends.
Beer.
Couch.
Eyes.
Gay.
Crazy.
Crazy.
Crazy.
Phone.
Bed.
Cab.
Sleep.
Hair.
Smile.
Twist.
METAL.
MUSIC.
METAL MUSIC.
Hands.
Bus.
Drink.

It's all his fault.
Every thing.
Hailee *hearts* Things.

And yet another occurance that proves to me why i don't need to continue my employment here... every thing is fucked up. I've been abused today, real hard. i'm expected to keep my cool and not abuse these cunts back.
Then i have a regular customer come in, this customer is also a muslim. this fact means almost nothing to me, but apparently, it is a horrible thing to some others. he has cuts on his face and arms because he was beaten, on his way to the gym, with a backpack, by four guys. Now he's not eating, and hasn't eaten for three days. he says to me, "i'm like this computer, i work very hard, but i can't go on for ever under strain and i need to be switched off, i'm switching off Hailee." and then "Also, my girlfriend left me, after three years, her girlfriends start telling her that my heritage is not what she needs in a husband and she has left. I love my faith and will die for it, but not with a bomb, not with a plane. By myself. Alone with Allah." I told him that he didn't have too die. I told him that we aren't all the same and that the assholes that think its ok to hurt people and kill people for a god that is meant to be peace loving are few, and that i'm sorry that he was subjected to that kind of behavior. I hate everything..

i need to write things, lots of things
about boys and work, but i have no words...
no, i have words, just not phrases...
Oger.
Lips.
Scent.
Smoke.
Bitch.
Full-time.
Mohawk.
Smile.
Kiss.
Subordinate.
Co-operation.
TRUST.
Manage.
Cuts.
Meetings.
Chat.
Text.

I thought of a couple more...
Decisive.
Friends.
Laugh.
Sly.
Moment.
Warm.
Rap.
Cautious.
Regular.
Inept.
Twinkle.
YellowCard.
Quiet.
Stock.
BoxWaft.
Soup.
OGER...

Why Is It That:
-I'm still casual and The New Guy is full time?
-Everyone at work can tell i'm in a shitty mood?
-Everyone at work can tell i'm in a shitty mood except HER, who insists on calling me stupid names, that makes me angrier?
-SHE will speak to me like I'm shit, but treat everyone else with a slight hint of respect?
-Even when i'm clearly entering in the E.O.D. balance, SHE will still sarcastically say "Gee, thanks for helping tidy for E.O.D..." When i've already vacuumed, wiped down the counters and balanced the fucking register?
-I have to discuss The New Guy being full time (rather than me) with The Store Owner rather than HER doing it for me (as my supervisor)?
-"it's.not.in.my.job.description." is a valid excuse for giving me the shitty jobs?
- picking up cigarette butts in the car park is not in my job description?
-i don't get paid extra to fucking do it?
-SHE gets to swan around treating everyone badly, including members of other teams?
-jobs just aren't handed out to you if you don't like the one you have?